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Wednesday, September 08, 2010 / 4:20 AM


Worship is a state of the mind and heart that leads to certain effects on the soul.
[My pod just ran out of batt zz]

In Blue like Jazz, Don says that he thinks that there is no better worship than wonder.
He wrote, "I think there are all sorts of things our hearts believe that don't make any sense to our heads. Love, for instance; we believe in love. Beauty. Jesus as God."

Worship to me, is a state that we must always be in. Such that everything you do and say glorifies God.
And with that, people see that your life is a constant testimony and sacrifice. Of course we are flawed, but I believe that as long as I put in effort to achieve it and not make excuses, it counts for something.

So here, this is my first step in stepping up to my calling. To lead people into worship. Be that tunnel of which worshippers will be able to glimpse the light at the end. The beauty and glory of God. That would be so lovely!

I guess I agree with Don to some measure. That worship encompasses wonder. Because it is through wonder that we can only dare to imagine the greatness of God. The sunsets, the dawns, something like music that touches the very depth of our soul. How we are receptive to the emotions of people around us. How we are so complex.

And I think that by stepping up to be a worship leader, I will eventually be able to understand God in a different light. One that does not just revolve around me. But seeing the wider picture, one that involves all His sheep. And I can't wait.



In the storm comes the calm
So there was this spark. And the spark was alone. It had no where to go, no where to hide. It shuddered at the thought of non-existence and clenched it's core in sick anticipation of nothing. Red and fleeting by each passing second, it turned blue. Now, it had something to burn for, to live again.